As we become apprentices of Jesus, we replace many of our wrong narratives that the world or church taught us. Truly understanding the truths of this chapter changed my life and coaching narrative more than any other that I learned in Jim's class.
Thomas Torrance wrote, "There is in fact no God behind the back of Jesus." To me, that means the angry God that people expect to be tucked away behind this man does not exist....perhaps that notion comes from the Old Testament....for me, it took a while, but I learned that the principal of linearity did not exist in His Kingdom in the way I believed. For example, if I do this, then I will receive this ( A + B = C). As I try tried to align how I ran the queendom of Jane with His Kingdom, it was a hard lie to trade in for truth, because for much of my life, this belief was very convenient.
I can actually remember sitting on the sidelines before a game and looking at the coach of the other team and smiling. Back then, I believed with all my heart we would win the game because I had been so "good" (serving, doing quiet time, praying, confessing, reading my Bible), and I knew that she had not ( she wasn't even a Christian). A pretty good lie to have on your side when you are feeling good, huh? But years later in my life, several crises happened, I believed the reverse. When my Daddy died, when I got run out of town because I didn't win enough games, and when I had a brain aneurysm, I was pretty sure I knew in each of these cases horrible sin I had committed against GOD to deserve these horrible things. Nothing could have been further from the truth. I replaced the “narrative God is an angry judge. If you sin, you will be punished." But it took several years. I know now that GOD is good and that nothing can happen to me today that He cannot handle. I am safe in His kingdom.
- Have you ever felt you were being punished for a sin? Or rewarded for being good? Is this hard to replace?
- Reread pages 46-47 "The Good Only the Good Know". St. Augustine is profound as he shifts the discussion away from the "cause and effect" narrative of sin and suffering. What does he replace this with?
- On page 49, Jim writes, "we participate in HIS faith." How is coaching an opportunity to do that?
- The disciplines of silence and being aware of His creation were life changing for me. Both of them took time to develop, but I have found that when I combine the two, I break the hold of the world and also that I feel closer to Him. I just returned from a week at the beach, where i had long periods of both, and I feel refueled and refreshed. Short doses daily, PLUS longer times -- each are like gold to me. What did you learn this week as you began exploring these disciplines?
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Mon, May 10, 2010
by Jane Albright